outside shying away, inside dying to say ~ 100.

HAY EVERYONE. :D
yes. 100th post!! :) (as the title of this post implied...oh so subtly....)
wow i cant believe this blog's been posted on 100 times already, seems like only yesterday when we discussed making this joint blog, our memory library :) so one day, when we're old and frail, we could revisit our library of our 14 year old memories ~ by then, i'd prolly look back..and LAUGH. hahaaa
So due to science, ive learnt that during teenage years, people change, and ofc our class all laughed when Mr.K very figuratively descibed this.. O_o but afterwards it really sunk in. people Do change. this years really been about self discovery. thinking back to last year, life was so much simpler, my mind was so much simpler. it was naive and happy :) and this year, so much has changed. why oh why.. ohkay so im going to stop ranting about that now, and because im really glad AG CERT is over, i wanted to say a few special thankyous :) these have been building up in my mind for a long time...and vary in level of seriousness haha ... (shoutout to kajabanana who criticized our blog for being too depressing for his taste, well too baaadd, blogs are for our ramblings and rantings hahahahah ..yes LOLjk but theses are all nice thank yous hehee)

1.  today, when you were scanning the hall, that great big smile which flashed across your face when you saw me... just made my day. like seriously. you prolly wont even read this, too lazy == but thank you
2. so our entire friendship was like a fire. It was just like a flash, a big but short flash. then it disappeared. and im so sorry about that, i know it wouldve confused you, but you'll never know. so anyway, that  pause today, when you looked back again and nodded, made my heart smile. so thank you  i miss our conversations :') i miss the texts if i wasnt online all night, i was reading through some logs, and well you really just made me smile. somuch. but then, shit happens. life goes on. but when others say it shouldve been you, i know that it wouldnt have worked. i hope we can redo our friendship :) reallly :)
3. haha you're a funny one. literally. i love...ur face LOL. ( in a totally .. non sus way haha) im srs..its so highlarious hahaha.. and what you said, made me temporarily forget everything else and smile, so thank you part of me is scared of you, but i can see us becoming better friends :)
4. oh ur so loud. =='' but ur so chill, and we talk about anything..like actually. im really touched you trust me, and well, i enjoy ur anecdotes on..well really anything :L thank you
5. we've drifted a fair bit, i remember when i used to call you one of my best friends but now ur just a special sis, and thats kool i guesss, everything comes to an end at a stage, but i see a new beginning forming.
you're actually so unreliable for someone of ur authority -.- but its so damn hilarious especially with ur other half  so thank you hahahahhaa, the things you're interested in, the images you think up just make me ROFL and facepalm and I KNOW you'll read this one day, when you decide to enter the online social world ;) so im just gonna say.. remember the "darrrrk alleywaaay"????
6.  you're so creeeeepyy... yes we've had our ups and downs, (COUGH YEAR8COUGH) but thanks for everythaaangg , especially for that text recently about a certain injury, it actually made my day to read it LAWL.. thank you, betcha didnt know that :p ohk im 100% sure ur reading this.. so im just gonna say NOODLES. ohk :) now you know who you are heeeeeeh <3
7. haha i was meaning to blog this a long time ago, but remember it was the week after cabaret, we were walking from an elective class to another, and you started the conversation with that. it was so...well ..on the surface LOL. but it made me kinda smile haha i cant believe that would make me smile, but yes it did. when i really needed it. so thank you..gawsh this is weird, but i actually cant believe you didnt give up...for.so.long. im sorry i never gave you a chance, i didnt want to get your hopes up. but you really inspired me (Y)
8. haha, i love our back of the class maths discussions about life LOL... they're great (Y) and i KNOW UR READING THIS..thats why i posted this, cuz i caught you with our blog open on ur PHONE HAHAHA.. ohk. so..chillll about academics etccc it'll be ohkaayyyy (Y) but thank you for being an entertaining being in my life =D
9. i remember when i fell for you...7 YEARS AGO. LOOOL. ohk megaAWKS. anyway thank you for ... everything :) being there when i needed someone. being there when no one else was. thank you :))
10. so im gonna make this for a bajillion people..ohkay maybe like 4.... haha THANKS YOU FOUR, LOVE YOU ALL. YOU. YOU. YOU. YOU.  (nd yueyue LOL. sorry i just had to say that ;D)no point writing anything, they all know it anyway heeeh :)))))THANK YOU.
(im actually so sorry if i didnt mention you :O, it doesnt mean you mean any less to me ! )
~K


"There's no kindness in your eyes,
The way you look at me, it's just not right.
I can tell whats going on this time,
Theres a stranger in my life.
You're not the person that I once knew.
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do,
Then they would see a stranger too.."